Nails....

I have the most AMAZING nail artist and here are samples of her work on my fingers....

LIFE......

I feel that it's time for me to finally write about my "life experiences" in the last two years.   It has been a ride I never thought I would be on at all.  My husband, at the time, decided he needed "space" so he moved out.  It was such a struggle for me as a person to realize it wasn't me, it was his choice, his free agency.  I was shocked, hurt, devastated...so many more emotions flowed through me on a daily basis that I can't even write them all.  My heart was broken and I had nowhere to turn.  I struggled with the church because a Heavenly Father that could let me go through such pain was really hard to believe.  Also the "happy" families at church were hard to see.  I went though a trial of my faith.  I would go to church at least once a month but because I needed to do my calling.  Not because I wanted to be there.  I struggled with prayer, quit scripture reading and totally wanted to go to a bar and drink myself into oblivion.  I never did.  I realized that would make things a million times worse.  I cried myself to sleep for at least two months+.  Yes, I can admit it, I needed anti-depressants because of all the bad emotional things flowing through me.  Not feeling good enough, not feeling pretty enough, not feeling strong enough.  The emotional roller coaster I was on took a toll on my mind and body.  I realized that I needed to go to the gym, first to just look amazing, now it's just for my own well being.  I started slowing to read scriptures again, to do digging into the gospel and realize how much Heavenly Father really loves me as an individual and how much I am needed.  I now know that angels were carrying me during my rough times and I just didn't want to acknowledge it then.  I feel extremely blessed for the handful of friends and family that would call or listen to me when I needed someone to talk to and to talk back bluntly.  I love those women so much.  Thank you Marianne, Melissa, Kristie, Mom and Sonja.  You all have made my struggles lighter with an ear to listen.  I am so blessed to have you amazing women in my life.  Yes, the lord knows I stubborn and sometimes have to be taught a lesson in order to learn but I am glad that I recognize that in myself and know I'm stubborn.  I wouldn't change the past almost two years in my life one ounce.  I have grown as an individual like I never would have if it didn't happen.  The lord has blessed me and I am so glad to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, I love the gospel.  So to the "life experiences" I have had, I say "Whoo Hoo"! That portion is over and more to come...my daughter is a teenager.      

To Cute....

Found some old pics and had to post them!

Past Stuff...

Sunday...

Besides going to church, coming home, chowing down on candy and other Sunday things I take pictures, mostly of myself.  Yes, it's a day where I'm supposed to look my best, yet I look as best as I can on a daily basis.  I shall prove the truth, don't be jealous of this beauty.

Like I said don't be jealous of all this awesomeness! 

Nerf War

Yes, Madi and I have nerf wars.  We would do beanie baby wars but who knows where those critters have disappeared to in the house.  Probably with the darts we lost during the war. 

 Can't wait for the weather to warm up for water gun wars!

 The gas mask was amazing! I could shoot her in the face and the darts pinged off, so cool!

Red Rock

Yea, we went to Red Rock to hike.  Go figure!

LAZER CAT