Run or Dye

I decided that it was time to actually do a 5k.  So I choose the Run or Dye.  The concept is to run while dye packets and people are throwing it at you to cover you will dye.  For what reason, just because it's fun to be colored crazy.  Besides it was my first 5k.  It was freezing but fun.  Madi made it out without anything on her except a few green dots and one yellow spot.  She's a stealthy ninja that chid o' mine.  My cousin Michelle went with us too and we all had a color blast.

Children

Children are such a pain in the patooty!  My daughter and I were walking around Target yesterday with a Despicable Me Fart Gun in the basket shooting it when we would get around people.  It made some really strange noises, some short, some longer then normal but all equally funny.  People would turn and look but we would pretend nothing was happening except some fanning of the buns. The child fanned!  The extreme laughter when we would get away from the unsuspecting victims was ridiculous.  At least it was odorless!!   My child and I proceeded to go through the entire store using the weapon and enjoying every minute of it.  When we got home for some reason child decided that we should lay on my bed and take selfies.  They are some of the most awful pictures ever recorded in the history of my computer.  Some don't even look like us.  In one I have no nose!  We were laughing so hard we were crying and my makeup started to run everywhere, so we took a picture of that!  I will only share two of the plethora of pictures.  So you won't want to run screaming from the computer...

 You get no nose and the drunk with laughter pictures.  Children…whatcha gonna do with them? Or should I say what would I do with out her?

Passive-Aggressive

I was having a discussion recently with my co-workers.  One had stumbled across a great website called passive aggressive notes.  Here is an example of one that was posted.

In the discussion a co-worker turned to me and said nothing about you is passive-aggressive.  

Passive-aggressive behavior is the indirect expression of hostility, such as through procrastination, hostile jokes, stubbornness, resentment, sullenness, or deliberate/repeated failure to accomplish requested tasks for which one is (often explicitly) responsible.  She was correct, nothing about me is passive-aggressive.  I don't put up with crap, I tend to call out b.s. in a round about way.  I loathe procrastination, better to do things then wait because you have to do it anyway.  Mean jokes are just that mean and there is no room for them in my life.  I can be stubborn about my beliefs but I don't push them on anyone, it's about respect, not about everyone thinking like I do.  Besides it would be boring to have same place, same thoughts mentality in life I enjoy the differences in people and the fact that our opinions do not line up at times.  Resentment is not in my vocabulary, I tend to open mouth insert foot constantly that why would I resent when someone else does.  I just ask to clarify if I had heard it right because ears play trick on us.  Sullenness not really, I like to change conversations by dropping "bombs" to either get a point across or have people stop getting angry at each other, some call that a 'peacemaker" I call it "bomb dropping" (which defeats the peacemaker word).  Failure is not an option, if I say I will do something I will do it even if I fail I will get right back up and get it done.  I do not set myself up for failure.  Sometimes failures happen but you get up and try, try, try again.  So bottom line is whatever the opposite of passive-aggressive is that's me.  Right to the point, can't lie, listen to people when talking and appreciate when it is reciprocated, will ask questions with a pure intent, loathe gossip, drop bombs to see people's reactions at times also.  I do enjoy a good argument and love to look up information that I didn't know.  I don't think I'm right, all the time, even most of the time, just some of the time.  I wouldn't even put a note on the candy, I'd put it out and enjoy the fact everyone else gets to have the calories and I can share the joy of giving.  Oh, I totally share too.     

    

Grateful

I had to post how I feel today.  Yesterday was an interesting day.  Our stake conference had the adult session and I had planned on going for a few weeks.  I got up relatively early for a Saturday, started cleaning the house, ironing (which took FOREVER), and laundry.  I was in my pj's until about 4pm, then I started to get ready to go to the adult session that started at 7pm.  It took me forever to get ready and while doing so I started thinking how much I didn't want to go.  I started to cry and felt way overwhelmed at the prospect of attending.  I got myself ready and forced myself to go, I had borrowed the ward tablecloths for a dance, washed them and made sure they were ready to go back.  I think if I didn't need to return them I would have convinced myself to not go.  A bit of background here is that this happens to me when I go to the temple also, not quite to this extent, but I get anxiety and want to go home.  I have come to the conclusion that Satan must be wanting to stop me so badly that he will try anything to get me not do something that I know I need to do.  I must be on the right path because this feeling has been popping up far to often and overwhelming especially yesterday.  At the conference the spirit was so strong, it wasn't because of what was said, but it was the truth behind it.  The topic was missionary work and for me it is a hard thing to do in the traditional sense.  Being a single mother I can't have the missionaries over for dinner and the people I work with have had the lessons and have chosen other paths.  I felt the "I'm not doing enough" feeling last night until President Peterson brought up a great point which was converting someone to the gospel can be you converting yourself.  I always had the belief that no matter whether your born into the church or baptized later we are all converted in one form or another.  Our stories are all different and all powerful about our conversion.  I know that for me it has been a long process that will never end because the Lord has so many more things in-store for me that I must be traveling that path right now for the adversary to try so hard to get me away from it.  I can now, as I did last night, say a prayer for strength to do what I need to do.  It took away the anxiety and I made it to a great and marvelous meeting that enriched my soul.  I am so blessed to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, I love the gospel and right now am sharing it in the way I can.  I will continue to do so until the Lord's path for me changes and the I will do it in different ways.